i finished this at 1.33am.

Yes, I'm updating.
It's 1.25am. I turned this comp off two hours ago and look, I'm back on. I can't sleep, too many things are runing in and outta my mind.

I don't know why but just when everything starts looking good, it doesn't. It's like bringing my hopes up then down again.
I'm just sick, you know. I want to give up. But I just can't.

The past is the past. And it should stay there.
I'll say I give up now, but tomorrow, this time, I'll probably be doing it again.

I'm just tired of it all, you know. I want to escepe from this bad dream and enter a world where things go my way, but that's not going to happen now, is it?

I want it to stop. Right now.

It's D.A.F.I.
D - Depressing
A - Annoying
F - Fustrating
I - Irritating

I'll end this post with a prayer.

Dear God, please help me get over it, I'm tired of feeling this way. Please Lord, free my mind from all evil thoughts and it, I want to be trapped no more. I want to be free. In Jesus's name I pray, Amen.

xo
meikay.
*ps, don't worry, I won't go off cutting myself or do anything stupid. ==